all that he thinks

is only in the future he/i will do this, do that

not-never thinking about what now to make it better- only dream about future

daydreaming on something that who knows it will turn to be

if right now can't make it good- just don't dream about future

that's it! 

future talking is only for lazy assholes who just keep give somebody  hope or themselves hope that it will be like what they talk - nothing will be just like their talk until they start doing it right then.. im sorry but i hate people who doing that-especially my asshole husband who already dreaming about his tax return.. fuck the more im thinking about it- im really hate him!

totally different from making plan and follow it though ....

talking about a week is kinda reasonable but more than that is totally just a dream...

almost

I think most people know that i already got my pr card which is good

im glad that i had a good two years without working and get to know who are the good friends and who aren't

how family i have

how my life will be

im so greatful with my time

anyway this is one thing that totally pissed me off tonight

my (.......) husband called asking me to borrow money from my dad maybe 1k and he will return when he gets his tax return

WHATTA FUCK!!

last time he borrowed my dad's money and told me that he will return the next friday.. yes- like that happened

never said or done anything about it and yes- a month passed- he still didn't do anything so i told him and wrote the check to my dad's account to retunr money

i know it was part of my fault that i shouldn't borrow money from my dad and i should know it better

anyway this story had a twist though

he wants to borrow money so he could buy his lovely karla who is he ex- sister-in-law whatever that ipad or same kida stuff but cheaper

reason because she never had any good thing for herself

that is funny to decide to buy something when he doesn't even have money to buy food for his family

fuck that idiot

i have no idea what made him think that

she doesn't have any technology or whatever- i see none of that is my problem or jd's problem

how come all her kids had it - don't you think is that because they need it so bad and want to make it happens

so if i want something so bad, i will make sure that i will get it sooner or later, i will totally gonna make it

jd just has a brain set up for something that he lacking of

buying new ipod for his 10 years old daughter who clearly doesn't even take care of her room?

reason why?

because she will have something to do

fuck-- the more i think about it, i just hate how his brain think

why don't him just think a little bit - how much money he makes- he has a crappy house- backyard that look like shit

a house decor that i just cant stand

but i didn't d anything because i know that it will need extra money to do

but hey he chose to spend on something that she doesn't need- not at all

fuck!

all he wants is just like having everything just like everybody else

have an iphone

have an ipod

let his daughter have a ipod accessories

buy his lovely ex sister-in-law an ipad

when no food in the refridgerator

live month by month

have no saving money

his wife can't go out and buy anything without he is saying - we wont have money until next friday- money gonna be tight

the fuck up part is asking his wife to borrow money from her dad to buy his lovely sister-in-law an ipad

im not happy and yes- i am dead serious that i am not happy at all

i just can't take it

that asshole is deadly serious don't know what he is getting himself into

not at all

OMG

got nothing to say really- i won't be able to do volunteer with habitat for while-- i guess i might have to call them or at least send them e-mail that i cant go

life is okay- i guess a little bit sucks

why?

i don't really know-- i thought that right after i got my pr card-- thing will be smoother, faster and better--

but nah!! i still have to wait to get id and so on

the sad thing that happened with me yesterday was

when jd told my sister that soon i will have a job and i won't be able to watch ashley -- first i thought that my sister will understand,but nope- her word was" is she already have a job?" im honestly don't really know what she mean,but seem like as long as she still doesn't have a job-- i still can have her to watch my daughter and it doesn't seem to me that she has some faith in me that i will get a job soon

ashley is such a nice and cute kid,but not with her community and social skills that she gets so attached to her mom, her dad and her grandpa-- it is a good thing,but come on- she has to go to school and learn-- she is almost 3,but still have to have to mom or whoever be there with her all the time or she will throw a fist.. that isn't cool

i just hope that thing will get better soon--

i don't really care that winter is coming- sow will fall-- life must go on and you can't just say that you won't work if the winter comes-- it is just not really reality for me

this is the song that i have been searching for long time

 funny part is i had this album since i was young!!

we are...

walking backward again this year

yep-- funny that yesterday was november 8th and today is november 7th--

only happened once a year so today i took my time and doing what im supposed to do because i could gain my time back...

awesome isn't it??

okay i already got my freedom so now all i have to do is get the free card and i hope i could get that tomorrow :)

yes!!

now one thing that i have to keep in mind is ....

keep track of money im spending ..

put everything in account book because seem like on my us bank, i have couple thing that i don't really know where it came from

oh well gotta do that...

so looking for job- keep my volunteer on my can do level and make plan --

yee-hawww!!!

still have good day-bad day with julie,but i try not to get so emotional unless she hits my disturbing spots--

which she seem to know and doing it couple time a day

anyway life is interesting right now and

cant wait to go back to thailand soon

my mom!!!