just a little thing from the great bake off for buddy cake boss guy

it is the great wonderful feeling when you are acheiving something that you love and want to do

i am totally missed that feeling awhile back ago!

it was a minute or more ago that i watched that show  and there is one guy said something about he loves the painting and air-brushing on his cake-- hehas been doing cake/decoration cake for more than 10 years and the best feeling is when he finishes it

have fun and be proud of himself when he finished what he love

then i thought back to myself

what make me hapy!

right now im doing everything for money

i picked up shifts from others

didn't mean that i love OG

oppositely i started to grow more annoying and not fun with it

day by day

i love serving

i didn't say i don't like it

but something throw me off my feeling to do it

maybe my jealousy that i saw others make ton of money,but not me

maybe the feeling that i don't like those mgr

i need some feeling love to pick me up

im totally forgot my feeling of being my service business

i don't feel proud of myself after i finished talking with my guests

and i never feel that they will love to come back to see me

i still not be comfortable with what i am doing

or another word- i don't even know what the hell  am i doing

i don't feel proud of what i am doing

i don't feel alive or happy with what i  am doing

i don't  even feel like i want to talk to any of them

i need to have a feeling of love  in what i am doing

i think my problem is i have to change my attitute of working

but there are tons of asshole and morons

so many drama queens and so many snobs around

maybe i have to look over those and do the best with my  job

trying to love my job

i feel way better with doing volunteer jobs

i feel like i am more acheiveing with running miles

maybe all of these is my thinking

i should be happy with what i have

enjoy what i face everyday

stay away from those douchbags

okay maybe start now-- stop calling them name

maybe using some other better word

asshole = brain

moron = helper

drama queen = sensitive

douchbag = muscle

okay flip them up side down

and still try to stay aay from them