I'm been thinking what I am craving the most since

I have been here.

Respect!!

That migt be the reason why I want to be firefighter.

 Doing lots of volunteer and also join navy

Well part of it because I want to help people, but I need I crave respects so badly!!

One day I talked about how come I didn't get anyone at work respect me. Then I realized that " treat others like you wanted to be treated" I'm thinking back at me the sane philosophy to me " am I respect them?" funny thing is I don't even care at all. I like couple people there and some I don't even care if they gonna be there or not.

 But I try to do my best in everything I'm doing.

JD once told me respect doesn't come with the job or career you have, but comes from how do you do it.

How do you prove yourself to them to others how thoughtful how good you are why they have to give their respective to me. Respect doesn't come from uniform you are wearing. Respect doesn't come from how much money you are making.

 Respect comes from how you act. How you think and how you make yourself to be.

Maybe I have to change my attitude to think different way like I am always say think about present, not past, not future.

Do my best with what I am doing. Okay I never like to be server. I prefer to be call cook or chef. It just stuck at the back of my mind. What a job be a server especially when I'm hitting 30. Still don't have a good career.

 This is probably be the most difficult thing to change about me.

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 that's all I have to change myself into.