it was yesterday that i forced myself to get up early in the morning, took shower and rush myself to SE 10th and Maury street to be part of habitat volunteer 20/10
the first and second day was great -- well not so great,but way better than the third time
this is just my opinion and it is just me
no don't blame me- because it is my opinion though
i got there a bit late say 8.30 am -- i supposed to be there at 7,but it was rain so i chose to cuddle with my lovely husband ...
so got there , talked with amber-- i think it is her name--
she is probably the girl with really cheer up aura-- it is a good thing :)
so i asked to be back at house #9 again
when i got there-- nobody that i know and oh well seem like i have to work with new people again
not a big deal! i think
i stood around checking what are those people doing and tried to tell them what did we do yesterday so they have some idea what to do to continue
the answer i got from those two assholes was " i know!" and that's it!
okay then so i tried not to say anything,but asked the crew leader maybe i can do something else,but again the answer from crew leader was seem you know what you are doing, why don't you keep do siding if you don't mind....
one thing came into my mind was if i don't mind, im probably not gonna open my mouth asking you to change my task,but this is because i do mind that's why i try not to be with this two assholes
anyway i tried to do whatever that i can-- not talk much,just try to be a good helper with my mind keep wandering--
either these two assholes aren't like to listen to a women
or they are really hate asians or racists
oh well i try to think less and try so hard in positive thinking like
"these isn't everyday that you will meet up with asshole so today must be my lucky day to test myself"
then my negative mind just came cut through and said
"yes,but again not only one today,but two assholes"
okay my mind!!!
anyway it was rain, sprikling and cold so i stood myself maybe 3 hours and then i decided to leave
reason -- it is raining and i don't want to catch a cold-- i have to work tomorrow
so i came home-- it was stink, not clean so i put julie to clean the kitchen and also her room
talked with jd about it and he told me-- it is worst at his work--
he has to deal with this situation that i just met everyday
the worst part is they don't even care about hoe safety of others
his life can be in danger,but none of them care
just like that .....
i feel so bad for jd and think maybe i should do something else to make his life better at home..
so at least he has a happy home
i must change myself be nice to his daughter even i hate it so bad
i keep thinking about things that happened at house number 9 all day then i came up with couple things
" i give my respect others just the same that i want them to respect me,but if they don't give me some respect.. not only i won't respect them.. i will degrede them to hell on earth"
" i will be better than everyone.. better career, better house, better life, better education and all i want from them is just envy and jealous that they can't have life like me"
' i won't dress sexy for others, show or explode myself to others only for my husband and for the money tat i accept only"
' im thinking about do another blog call -- inthenaived-mindoflittleasiangirlinthe greatamerica... still can't decide should i have a blank on each word or just like one word long that hard to read just like that"
then i have question -- how come asians are so outstanding or be preferable a lot here especially girls then i came up those people who said this either they never see any asian or they just love to be different... well i totally lost with this phrase,but i again don't care..lol
still want to be firefighter and globetrotter
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