great!!!

okay what to start--

what could be worst between have a stepdaughter who doesn't give a fuck to anything .. good at pretending and be such a brat- never appreciated thing in life- doesn't listen, doesn't care and all she care is herself and only herself and yes! i hate everything about her

or have a husband who never really care about you- he said like he cares,but from his behavior is like nothing-- everthing that i say seem just like a wind that blow pass him and gone- not even feel it. only care about his tv and his porn

doesn't do anything at all around the house - i understand that he works,but even on his day offs- the only thing that i see is wake up-watch porn with smoking, then move his lazy ass to the couch watch tv, wait for me to cook and bring to him then watch tv the whole day until he falls into sleep

sex sucks and i don't even feel anything -

i understand that i don't work right now so all i can do is does the house work,but the funny part was even i was working for 3 stright years- i was doing the same thing- and yes, i wasn't really home much to see all this,but it was all the same even now and then

yes- im trap and i know that i can leave any time that i want,but why do i want to waste my 3 years almost 4 years in hell when im almost can be doing everything legally

so now im just try to stay away from the house as much as i can - get everything that im supposed to be get. do whatever that i could

im not that stupid person that lost something and willingly to  lost the whole thing

whatever people might say that im mean or whatever

why don't you try to be in my shoe one day

im in this shoe for 4 years and i just cant really take this anymore

im want it to be over as soon as i can

im done!