been awhile

almost 2-3 months that i haven't post anything here at all..

been busy with

job

volunteer

and

 also my personal life



last talk about my server job

it's been real and i did enjoy it--

even not really much because i didn't really make joob money like others

i guess cuz i am asian,but fuck that- none of them deserved to have me anyway

im way too good to bring them food to table and seem like the only 3 tables that i will miss are those old couple that came late,but talk about their barbeque and family with me, old couple that she even showed me her two daughters -heiley and zooey-i believe, i could be wrong and the last couple and sweet mom that she is so sweet,but i know where they are so im good-- i can see them anyway and anytime that i want to

okay my managers are just like manager- i guess i couldn't  say anything about it much- they are totally been raised different world than me- totally different perspected of the world and totally different culture so i didn't expected them to understand my point of working view,but it was nice to work with them and know them

i do give them respected as manager,but just in the  restaurant-- outside they are nothing to me-- no need to be remember anything good or bad about them

my colleage - say 10% of them are worthless asshole and im so glad that i don't have to see them anymore

60 % that i don't even care if they there or not - and yes- i know they feel the same

20% that i do talk to them and so happy that i have know them

10% that im so thankful to meet them , be friend with them and have them in my life

then the last group - those cheap asshole customers -- stucked up bitches, stupid nonsense couple and totally idiot fuck up family-- im so glad and all i can say right now is fuck all of you, asshole!

more than 70% of customers are cheap, stupid and oh my gosh, i don't know how people can be that fuck up-- they said stupid are born everyday- i don't even know how can they come and be in one place maybe those unlimited soup and salad bring them here-- wow!! 

Whaoow!!!

today talked with couple people at work

OMG!!

those customers there are just ridiculasly low-- i mean lower than i thought they are

extremely low--

i didn't talk about cheap though

well that is i guess their habit or behavior

but calling african-american with N word or using the word black is just wow!

just disgusting!

still i don't know how did they choose Ct or ppl who hold card-

i know it isn't my problem as long as they don't come and get on my face,but still wow!

wow!

just pure wow!

what do i want to be/

there are....

so  many type of people at my work..

one that do their own business and still love to mind others people business

one that think that they already finished their own business and love to mind other people business

one that no matter what still have to mind other people business

one that don't really care other people business ,but love to be in other people business way

one that doesn't really care,but pretend like they care and fuck others people at their back

one that doesn't care, doesn't mind and just focusing on their own business -this is good

and one that i have no idea whattafuck does they want- doesn't do their own business,but love to put their word in other people business and talk shit about others

wow!

so many morons around

gotta have my guard up otherwise sooner or later i will turn to be same as them

just talking about it- already disgust me, make me sick and

wow! the more you work with them, the more you just want to get out of there as fast as possible

it is just weird

it might have culture involving with it,but let's hope

there is in every job

there will be couple asshole in organization

there will be one stupid moron fuck that i have to face everyday

there will be really awesome sweetheart that everyone so adore

there will be a joker in the job

there will be one up-tight people that don't even care what is going on with work like me

there will be the always optimistic people and still have people talking shit behind their back

there will be bunches of people working together and a lot of them that doesn't get along

let's see how many people that i don't even want to look

iiii

how many people that if i don't have to talk, i won't even care to talk to

iiii

how many people that i never feel like have to talk to -never want to even say hi

iiiiiiii

-- this number is assuming, there are bunches of people there, that i know they don't even care about me and i don't even care they exist!

oh well my life is just great!

-compare this number is just less than 50 percent of people who are working there

nicee!!!



If I?

Watched CSI tonight and there is one episode that a guy is so in love

with the prostitute and really want to get her out of there,

 but she doesn't even care.

She is hot, sexy, pretty and I believe she is all everything I don't have.

 I can't do sweet-talk, can't use the right word to make guys fall in love with me, not sexy, got zero in feminine thing. All I have is just the way I am.

I can't make guy fall on their feet in love with me. Can't make any guys spend thousand of thousand on me.

 What if I could do that. Be so pretty and sweet.

Can make all guys in the world do everything for me.

What will make the different to me.

Just wondering maybe just one day

to feel how that feel will be

 extremely awesome!!

Way back in my freshmen year in college.

Tonight was extremely dull!

Oh well what can I say.

 I got no creativity of thinking where to go out at night,my husband is such a non- catholic mind( I ain't talking about religious, just saying it out loud here) and my city is just dead after 10 pm or maybe it has something to do but according to those reasons that I mentioned earlier so i have no idea what is going on.

 No drink, no drug or no feeling of going out wasting money so yes! Just fuck me with my

" I have no idea what to do tonight"

Okay just deleted everything that I just wrote and back to my title said!!

 Freshmen in college

It was a time that I started to go out socialized more.

 Like go to concerts, those radio events that I got free VIP ticket, go out parties and yes dancing.

 Lucky me that not all my friend's like to drink so I'm good and always safe to get home.

Here if you see me now and then- you will know that I'm unattractive woman.

I mean not at all so I'm usually be the one who like this guy, like that guy and yes!

 None of them like me and I'm 100% sure and well I actually don't even give a damn about it. Just having fun saying he is cute.

 Love his smile.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Then there was a time that I went to see acoustic concert with my friend

. Well I saw this band on tv and be honestly to you. I have relly low down to the ground self-esteem so all I think about guys is they only think of me as a friend and I'm that kinda girl who talks about everything. Into motorcycle and don't put any make up on.

 Don't you think that I don't want to. I want to be extremely hot with make up but I know that even magic make up still can't help me ahit so what am I have to waste money and time with it then.

Okay back to concert. My friend and I was given VIP pass for concert so we were sitting in front of the band and hey those musician are pretty cute.

Well not my type, but they are definitely good looking guys. There is a guitar guy that I noticed couple time that he looked at me bit again as I always think to myself. He probably never seen any gal with ton of acne on her face so with that thoughts.

 I don't even care shit. Then a week or month passed, I met them

Again at the bar I went to.

 Well I noticed cuz they are a band so everybody wanna talk to them. And yes, I noticed again that he looked at me with smile.

Okay then he might be remember me from the concert. I didn't talk with him but I kept look at him and yes I see him smile back everytime he saw me looking.

A month passed by, my college got annually concert and yes his band was one of the highlight of the show.

 I was in the club so most of the time, I stood at my booth, helped my friend and Serling some snack. He came walk pass with his friend and decided to sit in front of me chilling. I think that's the first time ever that I feel Luke he is interested in me.

Or maybe not, but yeah! We never talked.. I know that he has girlfriend by that time even they broke up not too ling after that and even I saw him couple times at my school again, I never showed up around him ever.

 Call me coward, but that's just the way I am.

It was the first time ever that I feel like I have some guy interested in me or yes!

 I might be wrong just think I might have some guy like me.

That's it!!

Funny when I went on YouTube tonight and saw his song.

 It reminded me of one of those days. Interesting!

Then I thinking back what if I have courage to walk up to him and say hi.

What If all I think is wrong.

 What if I thought he has his interests in me,but actually my friend.

That's all I'm just wanna say about it!!

Not just me that was..

It was so funny tonight when I had meal after work with Tia and Thomas. She is 20 something and still pretty young so it is kinda mirror effected myself 10 years ago.

 Thought to myself that I was like that who think this guy, that guy like me. Sorry yo say this to myself,but it's so pathetic.

At least I don't think like that anymore.

 Good for me.

Anyway it kinda sucks to have to give people ride home, but they don't really care about you at all. Gosh! I feel used.

Oh well at least I know.

By the way, whatever acts that my mgr did tonight. I just think it isn't appropriated for mgr at all. Hi-5. Whattaheck! I actually don't want to give it back at all,but try to be polite so I just gonna pretent like it wasn't happened!

Talk about had couple kids ride home with me-- he asked me one question

" do you think which one is more stupid?

the adult that let kids keep her from going home for an hour on or

the kids who keep the ride wait for about an hour?"

yeah yeah

i know the answer--

it's me

im just trying to be nice,but if they don't see it- screw them then

i think i know now why they have to have rule!

I'm been thinking what I am craving the most since

I have been here.

Respect!!

That migt be the reason why I want to be firefighter.

 Doing lots of volunteer and also join navy

Well part of it because I want to help people, but I need I crave respects so badly!!

One day I talked about how come I didn't get anyone at work respect me. Then I realized that " treat others like you wanted to be treated" I'm thinking back at me the sane philosophy to me " am I respect them?" funny thing is I don't even care at all. I like couple people there and some I don't even care if they gonna be there or not.

 But I try to do my best in everything I'm doing.

JD once told me respect doesn't come with the job or career you have, but comes from how do you do it.

How do you prove yourself to them to others how thoughtful how good you are why they have to give their respective to me. Respect doesn't come from uniform you are wearing. Respect doesn't come from how much money you are making.

 Respect comes from how you act. How you think and how you make yourself to be.

Maybe I have to change my attitude to think different way like I am always say think about present, not past, not future.

Do my best with what I am doing. Okay I never like to be server. I prefer to be call cook or chef. It just stuck at the back of my mind. What a job be a server especially when I'm hitting 30. Still don't have a good career.

 This is probably be the most difficult thing to change about me.

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 that's all I have to change myself into.

You aint cool,Man!

Oh well

all the Chads at OG are so assholes

im just saying it out loud...



haha

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What a day!!

Okay woke up at 8.15 am, tried as fast as possible to get ready for work. Boom! Water pipe broke! Damn! I mean seriously!! I won't go to work with not taking a shower. Never! I ain't JD. Lol. Oh well then I called OG. Let them know that I won't be able to go to work today. Tried to call Willie for help with water pipe,but I guess we might have to find somebody else. Then we took off to check off the ford ranger. We ended up paid $6100 cash with everything.
We stopped to see Cory for couple while. Then we left for Jd's dentist appointment. He took one of his left small tooth out. Meanwhile, I went to target got stuffs for Willie and Katherine. Pizza pan and mixing bowl, I believed. I also got writing pad and magnet. Not bad for $4 stuffs.
Picked JD up and went yo see couple more car shops. Went to the San diago again for test drive. Stayed for awhile. Called tamie from tj maxx then I had interviews at 3.30 pm. Had lunch at hyvee. Grand buffet. No more!! Food are too good and I ate too much. Not cool!!
Dropped JD at home. Went to interviewed stopped by walmart for mouse trap and then I had a few minutes to check out kool pens. I spent $8 on stupid pens. I can't believe that I spent $2 each pen for it. Not good. Then I went to interview with mike. Store mgr. I have orientation on this coming Sunday at 2 pm. And probably start my job as customer service coordinator next next week. Only Sunday to Tuesday though.
Then I went to pick up the shirt. Paid $21 for 3 shirts and 1 suit. Not bad!
They have jade tree. Pretty cool!!
Then JD told that his ranger his engine went wrong. So glad that the david guy still Here so we got check back and I hope JD will get his truck back soon!!
Then I had firefighter volunteer meeting at 6.30 pm. That's actually the interview. I didn't even prepare anything at all. Oh well at least. I did what I believe in and I can't wait to be part of it. Even I didn't pass this interview, I will submit and do it again and again. As long as I'm here.
Btw, today I had people think I'm a store mgr cuz the way I dress I think. Make me feel good. Maybe I should wear that often. Lol.

Muay Thai Training

Muay Thai Training


Muay Thai Training is 6 days a week, from Mondays to Saturdays.
A regular training day at 301 is as follow:

MORNING
6.30 am: long run along the beach of sam roi yod. around 9km or interval run 9km or speed drill 3×1800 meters.
7.45 am: Shadow boxing or tires jump 15 min
8 am: Bag work with techniques 3 rounds of 5 minutes each.
8.25 am: Sparring
8.50 am: stretching or swimming.

AFTERNOON
4 pm: short run 2.5 km or jump rope 20 minutes
4.20 pm: Shadow boxing
4.35 pm: Pads work + techniques 3 to 5 rounds of 5 minutes
5.30 pm: Bag work 3 rounds of 5 minutes
5.50 pm: clinch 30 minutes
6.20 pm: knees or low kick series 300 times.
6.45 pm: Strengh and work out.
7.10 pm: Stretching, relax or swimming

MMA Training

MMA training is 4 times a week, in the morning or afternoon. The rest of the time is Muay thai training.
Schedule:
Monday – Morning; MMA – Afternnon: Muay Thai
Tuesday – Morning: Muay Thai – Afternoon: MMA
Wednesday – Morning: Muay Thai – Afternoon: Muay Thai
Thursday – Morning: Muay Thai – Afternoon: MMA
Friday – Morning: Muay Thai – Afternon: MMA
Saturday – Morning: Muay Thai – Afternoon: Muay Thai

Program:
Short run 2.5 km or jump rope 20 minutes
Shadow boxing + take down and take down defense
MMA warmup
Submission grappling techniques or take down – Judo – Wrestling techniques
Roll submission grappling or take down – Judo – Wrestling or MMA sparring
Tire hammer + Tire flip
Strengh and work out
Stretching- relax- swimming

http://301thailand.com/training/mma-training-program/

Okay okay--

lower my expectation!

this is my problem

know my value

Never settle less than what you worth!! I should keep this word in mind

im worth more than be server at OG

at least -- i do the best at my job and try hard to keep them happy!

this morning was pure atitute to him -E-- sorry!

my bad,but again it wasn't my fault

again im sorry that i had attitute

it is just fool of me!

i think me and D - done by now - that is kinda sucks to go to work and don't smile

but again -people just make me go crazy--

especially with people that you don't wanna be with

it is just not fun

not cool to be around

okay this is V-Day

so happy Valentine to everyone!



It's been...

An awesome day so far in this week. Now I'm done messing up with others I believe. Today is new day. Well I'm trying. Anyway I got some question in mind. I'm wondering how come couple looking pretty gals always in A room. Seem like I am moved back and forth,but I never see they work in other rooms. I might goons mention that today.

 I'm sterring again. Lol

Anyway yesterday I had family talked with my hubby again. The last word he had for me was " I don't understand how can adult like me hate 10 years old little gal too much"

Funny, but it's true. I can't even stand her voice.

 Her face or even her perfume that she wears.

I'm thinking about leaving. See don't think I ain't scare to start everything new. I am thrilled in the bad way. So many what if question in mind, but one thing I don't have to deal with anymore is dealing with my step daughter. Another thing I will loose and miss most is my hubby. I don't know what will be next.

Too many things to worry about, I wish I could reduce some of it.

 I'm tired of this moment time.

I'm really tired of this present time.

Message to you!

I will not kiss your stupid ass like others.

If you don't like my work performance,talk with me.

 If you don't like my attitude,deal with it. Buttcheek!

Get Ready For Boot Camp

Get Ready For Boot Camp

wow!

last night, My lovely hubby told me something that

i don't know what to say or respond back

it isn't bad or really upset me,but it left me just question

why?

he said he feel one of his old time girl friend is his soulmate

i was like it is interesting

then i asked back how about me?

he blanked

no answer

should i take it is a sign of something

am i his sexmate

because seem like all he likes about me is my legs

funny,but true

we don't go out often

we don't really do anything much together

part of the reason, i just can't stand be around his kid

just can't

and his reason is "we're broke"

but seem like everytime when im out of the house

he just go behind my back and get this -get that for others

oh this is another reason why he told me his old time girl friend is his soul mate

because they both like to give-

be a giver even they have no money

he probably thinks saying that " but you are way smarter giver-- you give time,but all asian are greedy" okay what is that supposed to mean to me then..

er im asian

oh well...

if he thinks that keep saying im smart in front of others will make me feel good and then behind my back -he just think of me as those women -he can use me-- it is just make no sense to me at all..

i just don't understand

not at all...



Story again!

It was one maybe good or not good night. I went to work at 3.45 pm. Didn't have table.

 Let's say until almost 5. Had two table station again.

Oh well from yesterday, I talked to those butt cheek GM. So today, I don't even wanna look or talk to him at all.

At least, I was ignored him for almost all night until the last table that they want to enjoy food one by one. Then my food cook quick so i had to tell another mgr to hold my food for me. Then my fav gone so I had to talk to this butt cheek GM.

 Not awkward, but I feel like I don't wanna do anything around his guy at all. Bored and feeling treated unfair from this guy even make me feel I can't stand or be around this guy at all.

Sucks!

My respected feeling to this buttcheek GM just keep declined day by day

this guy just one of those people who using me just like people i used to work before

Story again

I got schedule of working 11 am until lunch close and dinner from 4 to DBD( dinner business decline) okay asshole, read my fucking word! Lunch close and dinner business decline!! Fucking moron, I'm pretty sure you speak english, listen and speak in your whole life.

 Maybe you might haven't understand the word close and decline!! Asshole!

Anyway before I walked in, I was a bit wondering of why they schedule me at 11 and then answer clear when I had to work at C room.

 This room usually got face around 2 pm depended on how busy business is.

 Did I mention that I'm working tonight too and this lunch hour, I got schedule until lunch close.

Okay funny that today I actually had a great day with my tables. Not a problem and everything runs absolutely smooth. I even had the same guests from yesterday came to see me. She is really sweet!

Well thing went down to hell when I got my face at 2.30 pm.

It isn't big deal if I never ask them about not working split shift before and how they fuck up my schedule all the time.

I talked to GM about it. I guess wrong time,wrong place and those morons server just never wanted to leave. I think it's probably my fault that chose to talk to them.

 None of those asshole managers never care about me anyway. They probably let whoever that play, flirt or let them fuck- get the good tables. There is totally can't trust anyone in this business.

Funny part that I let them get on my nerve.. I should know that better! Guys and whores. I'm glad that I ain't one of them and from now on, I will just work with the money that they pay me $4 per hour. Not more, not less. Those moron mgrs always left me stood there like stupid now they will have to deal that themselves. As I said before, I don't get even! I get better!!

Be an asshole to me, I will do my best to make you live in hell.

Oh last but not least to that C fat ugly guy. You probable looking forward to get laid by all those cuties who around you all the time.

 Who know you might already have one or who cuz those whores just everywhere in every corners. Keep made me feel down with your asshole words. You might got me as if you thought. You might can keep running your fucking mouth around me. Told me this and that. I can't do this. I can't do that.

 Maybe you just shut your mouth around me from now on. It might be way better for you.

 I know I can't do anything to you and hell no, I won't put my hands on you. But just don't push me.

just shut- you got nothing to talk or do to me--

if you think you are the one who push the button for food--if you think you are working with so many duties at your job

you are just one of those people who got used just like me,but think you are better because you have more job to do

fucking moron!

First story

I was working at the A room. There was pretty steady constantly guests walked in.

Anyway there was couple guest walked in and orders new asiago cheese ravioli with chicken and husband ordered chicken Parm. Anyway the lady didn't like her food but prefer her husband food more.

So I went inside and tell manager about the food. The answer back from J manager was

 " what do you want me to do with it?"

first thought in my mind was er, you are a manager.

 Figure this out, I'm just come in here telling yoy this. Dude! Seriously, I only get pay $4 an hour.

This is not my fucking job to deal with guest likes or doesn't like the food. This is your fucking job, freaking  manager.

Again another thing, your 3 tables station and service partner also big table is so stupid. Fucking stupid!! I understand that you are pretty busy, pretty popular place for people to come visit but seriously! Why they have to make things more complicated. That hud whatever retarded system.

Pay me $4 then provide me table for guests to sit and then give me guests to sit then.

 Not just like,oh you got face

after worked for 2 hours. Damn, you!  Mgt.

Something to talk about

Walked in restaurant after that Bitch J as always. Oh well like I care. Had 2 tables with Andre as my service partner. Still don't understand what service partner for anyway. I hate working here with not many guests. Fucked up system and well I know that I still don't know lot of things, but still bunches of moron around me. Damn!!

Omg! Seriously! That!

Oh well well well.

 Yesterday- Saturday was not one of my good day . Well actually so far I haven't have any good day at all. Well I met one big tipper $20 once.

 Enjoy conversation with guests couple time. Had an awesome service partner couple time. Maybe I shouldn't complain though. Anyway yesterday I worked with J Sch and Britney- by the way this Br is an awesome chic. Oh well back to my Saturday story.

I worked for deb at lunch and actually I expected a little break maybe 5 minutes.

Okay back to the beginning might be way better to start. Left home at 10 just because I could stop by cough med at target. Got there, get it and walked around found couple cute converse shoes. Tried on, wanted but didn't have time to get it.

Maybe it's my lucky day not to spend any money.

Well got to work just 10.45 am.

Clocked in 5 min late. Asked D to get back outside cuz I didn't bring anything inside at all. Damn! He waited and kept watching. Okay from now on, I will never ever go outside after I get inside ever.

Seriously, it's creepy!!

Then I worked with Dominic, didn't get chance to help him much and my tables are just fine not a big tipper, but at least, they didn't forget to tip me.

There is one girl look just like a doll. So incredible cute!

James's table 321, the lady is just pure ass.

 Oh well,I'm happy that I didn't have her.

Okay i worked at 341 and 332. Anyway at the end, i gave my table to james. Then I got transfer to 433,424 and 444. Okay the two ladies at 433 sat there since 12 boon and now it's 5 pm-- they still not leave. WTF!

So it was 2.30 almost 3 hours with no guests for me. I asked. I should say I dares to ask E my mgr to maybe a quick break! Yes, he gave me 2 minutes break.

Wow! That's really gerenousity of you,E.

I will never ask that again. Ever!!

Then I walked out to see that J Sch took my table without telling me and using her fuggly face to tell me " I'm taking your table because there is only 7 guests on that table.

 You have 3 tables anyway so I think it will be okay for you" fuck that bitch! Seriously!

 I can't believe she just said that.

 Didn't ask at all.. Just took it and pretend like nothing happen. So this bitch just have to know what I can do. I never get even, I go far beyond!

So that 433 left and I had couple 5 people tables say 3.

 Then I got party of 5 with table that Britney own one, she told me I can have that and she will have the next one. Such a really reasonable of her.

 At least we talked and we agree on something. Not that that bitch J Sch. Anyway after party of 4, we have party of 20.

I told that B that I'm taking over her table because she took mine and she said okay I don't care. I knew after that she did really care and went to talk to all servers around that I have 3 tables and won't let her be in this party.

I told you, I won't get even.

The party went great with big huge help from Britney and her smartness to set thing up.

 We have no problem with guest check or anything at all. That's awesome! Way better than working with that server on the first party and yes I'm still remember and way better than working with another moron that I used to work at the family room with.

I haven't help her ring in any food.

 I feel really bad about it. I only did maybe 3 items.

 Not cool!!

Anyway Britney got party of 6 after that and I'm sure she had good tip.

They are drinker.

So far besides that B. I had quite an okay day. If I didn't have that party, I would only make $70 all day. Damn! Well plus shift $30.

My working $100 day and I mean really working!

Dear guests again!

I totally understand that you guys didn't know that I had only 2 tables.

So u think it's okay to just sit around and chat while you were out of work.

The main problem is of u don't leave, I didn't get any new tables and instead of making money. I didn't make any.

Or another word, I made none!!

You love to be mad at me.. Ask for manager if I bring you something so slow.

 The best thing you can do is smile to my face and say here is your tip and left me with nothing.

Again you won't even leave even I bring you check and everything because you just don't want to.

Funny that from the outside I look at my work place like heaven,but it's actually not at all

So many mean, selfish morons.

 Some of them just look like such a sweet lady but actually mean as hell.

Some of them look so sweet innocent, but act like a some working women Maybe I use too hash word. Oh well I'm try to stay away from those as much as I can.

So far not many people, I can talk to or I don't feel want to at all. Some are just selfish bustard and I know who now so stay away from those

I met couple new awesome people.

Even it's not everyday thing but I'm happy that besides those bad people. They do have some good people in them.

I'm still looking for new job. Here it's just wasting me time with some idiots.

Maybe working here is one of my mistake. Anyway I hope that I could find better job soon!! I'm praying for it everyday!!

just a little thing from the great bake off for buddy cake boss guy

it is the great wonderful feeling when you are acheiving something that you love and want to do

i am totally missed that feeling awhile back ago!

it was a minute or more ago that i watched that show  and there is one guy said something about he loves the painting and air-brushing on his cake-- hehas been doing cake/decoration cake for more than 10 years and the best feeling is when he finishes it

have fun and be proud of himself when he finished what he love

then i thought back to myself

what make me hapy!

right now im doing everything for money

i picked up shifts from others

didn't mean that i love OG

oppositely i started to grow more annoying and not fun with it

day by day

i love serving

i didn't say i don't like it

but something throw me off my feeling to do it

maybe my jealousy that i saw others make ton of money,but not me

maybe the feeling that i don't like those mgr

i need some feeling love to pick me up

im totally forgot my feeling of being my service business

i don't feel proud of myself after i finished talking with my guests

and i never feel that they will love to come back to see me

i still not be comfortable with what i am doing

or another word- i don't even know what the hell  am i doing

i don't feel proud of what i am doing

i don't feel alive or happy with what i  am doing

i don't  even feel like i want to talk to any of them

i need to have a feeling of love  in what i am doing

i think my problem is i have to change my attitute of working

but there are tons of asshole and morons

so many drama queens and so many snobs around

maybe i have to look over those and do the best with my  job

trying to love my job

i feel way better with doing volunteer jobs

i feel like i am more acheiveing with running miles

maybe all of these is my thinking

i should be happy with what i have

enjoy what i face everyday

stay away from those douchbags

okay maybe start now-- stop calling them name

maybe using some other better word

asshole = brain

moron = helper

drama queen = sensitive

douchbag = muscle

okay flip them up side down

and still try to stay aay from them

Dear guests continue!

Okay to two tables that I know that you forgot to tip me. Not intention, I know.

You were too nice and I'm 100% sure that you forgot.

$70 on 1 table and $60 on another table. I just hope that you are really forgot to tip me or if you didn't feel to tip me because I went to greet you slow. I apologized and sorry that I ruined your night out.

You said here is your tip and didn't sign anything so I'm sure that you accidentally took another copy. Oh well my $10 tip gone and I know that you don't really care.

No Any morons working today so I'm pretty happy about that and funny part at the end of the night. Sarah asked me what else did I put in my drink. Haha

Was a bit annoying with my trainer today. I just don't understand why he has to make everything so like in a hurry. I mean seriously, can't you talk like normal? I understand that your time is money, but you don't have to rush anyone. It's just strange thing that he does. Hope he isn't a minute man. Lol. That will be funny!!

Here is a stupid ever thing!!

Okay I guess I just have to type in whatever I could

Oh well whattaheck! Like I care

Today I got 3 tables which was really nice. Started with really nice 3 ladies who just finished her nursing exam. I'm so happy for her then family of 5 that are pretty easy and nice. Then after they left I got table of 9 that took 2 of my tables and then I had a girl who wasn't into helping part at all. Oh well we ended up got extra tip plus gratuity but not really big deal for me. The part that is really big deal for me was why do I have to have 2 or more servers on the table of 9. It's just weird then why do I have to have 2 servers added the food all together. It isn't make any sense to me. Seriously not!

I just so bump! With all those can't do this, can't do that. It's just stupid. Then I'm so happy that I had Thomas as my service partner so he helped me around a lot then I had family of 4 while I'm taking care of big table. Still not make any sense!!

After they left, I had table of 2 and another table of 2 came and then family of 4 that I almost got undercharged for them. Stupid me. And then I had 3 groups for table of 2. Then that's it!

Funny stupid part is I had mgr kept asking me do I need anything to go with the big group! No no and no! I only need food that come in front of me and that's it! Just hand me food. Why do you have to make this like it's a big deal.it's not make any senses!

Still I shouldn't hold any food at all. Only hold food if I have appetizer or any special drinks from bar. That's it!

Then I found out there are so many servers who just love to take advantage of others! Stay away from those as much as I can. The one that only do things that will benefit them stay from those too. The selfish kind and the drama kind. I can talk, but that's it. They aren't worth to be friend's with. Stay away from them as well.

I'm so happy that I pick the good friend's to be friend's with.

Dear Guests

Please don't be so cheap!

funny that i am say this to you,huh?

i know i can't really said it up in front,but im saying it right here because i know nobody reading this and hell no-- nobody cares about me anyway

dear first family of 4 that paid with 3 giftcards and check

your dining experience was about $80 for 4 --it isn't that bad

$20 each.. i must say

okay i know it was my fault that didn't bring you 4 glasses of water right in time that you expected me to bring them to you

i was doing best as i could

with 3 pos systems that they have at my restaurant and with 10 or more servers in a line

i wasn't try to be slow or rude to you or anything

i even asked some of my assistant to bring you drink,but turned to be he can't do it for me

i was try to ring you appitizer which was stuffed mushroom as soon as possible and bring you salad

hey!

maybe it was my fault that i can't do good comunicate with you

but seriously--

i didn't expected you to understand my non-english trying to doing my best in english with you anyway

okay

food came out quick..

i ran back and forth bring you refill and more salad or breadstick

then

again came to time to check out

i should know better to ring your receipt before hand

again it was my pureliness stupid--

who know the line gonna be long and with 3 or 4 servers in front of me trying to put the order it

we are all new to the pos system or at least with the new menu that we just have been open for 3 days

for god's sake!

went there you left me with no tip

i just hope that you and anyone in your family will never work as server like me

with $ 4.35 per hour and my money depend on your tip

hey maybe it was my stupid fault that i chose to work as server

i am trying my best to get different job too

it will be really nice if american company gave me more opportunity to let me try on the job--not just looking at my Cv or resume and decided not to take me in

anyway

i just hope that i won't see this cheap family of 4 again--

seriously even i am going out to eat and it is you or your family working as people who depends on my money

im still tip you at least $10

i didn't trying to say i ain't cheap,but i know what i should do and i am not you!

then

table of 2 ladies

your lunch meal was $27.71

interestinghow they came up with $.29 tip

i am doing anything that i think guests during lunch want

pace

get food fast

hot and leave happy

i went to your table offered to bring you drinks and breadstick

within 30 second-- seriously!

then back again,but you weren't ready because you had been talking and i guess you didn't care to order

you probably just want to come to talk and have soup and salad

oh well-- if you didn't tell me, how am i supposed to know

i did even ask you how much time do you have

no answer

nice!

went back again and still not ready

im sure you might be really annoying,but hey if you think im rushing you or offend you-- i didn't trying to

i was just trying to bring you lunch

that's only my intention that i have for you

food came quick

went back asking for more soup or salad/breadsticks for you,but answer was no

then come to paying time

--it was like bounching ball back and forth- i pay, you pay

i wish i was god to know know will pay so i don't have to split your check or combine them

bring back quick as soon as i can

after ran to 3 stupid pos that always have server ring order in

then you left me with 29 cents

which i am still really asking myself

what did i do wrong --

what did i do to deserve this

not make any sense

and i just wish them same thing to you

never be server

never seen you again

and again i would leave $6 tip if i were you!

okay it is been only 2 weeks since i started working

but now  i know something

and not all americans are going to school

learning the manner

learning how to be reasonable with others

and seriously they don't have a good common sense

sadly to see them and im so greatful to get to know this

and im so thankful that i have way better common sense than them

hey don't you think im done!

nope!

nope!

nope!

more

now time to talk about servers

funny

so many pretty faces

but heart black as hell

im so happy that i know this within 2 weeks

mean- selfish and just only care about them

i do understand that you want to make money

i do too--

hey i didn't blame you for that

but taking order people order

or playing around -not helping others

it is just showing who you are

some servers who only smile to their guests

it is their personality

i don't blame them

but don't you just think

smile doesn't caused you a thing

maybe wrinkle of your  eyes

or the corner of your mouth

but i think it is way better than wrinkle that come by making your face like can't shit for a week

screw you those heartless servers!

then mgrs

i got nothing to talk about you right now--

im just don't wanna talk with you anyway

trying to stay away as far as i could because i have a funny feeling, the more i call you--i must be in some stupid trouble i am making so nope

i don't want to talk to you

i don't laugh on others mistake unless i am knowing that person well

just let you know!

i won't take my language as my excused because i don't like it

that's why im trying to repeat your order everytime to prevent my mistake

that is what i am going to do for now!

god helps me!

this week

it is my first lunch working week

i didn't work on monday,but tuesday wasn't that bad

i mean not busy at all..

oh well-- i hope they will give me 3 tables soon so i could see how money i will make

so far i have been pick up other people shift and i got 3 shift so far-- so happy that i could work all day--

didn't do good on sale yesterday

funny thing to write here

i only have 1.19 sale on dessert,app and wine so

it is really low in mgr's eye

so i went to E to sign my tiptop card and he wants to talk with me about it

seriously?

wow!

i mean he said he doesn't want to see that again- hey so do i

i already asked guests if they want any app or wine or dessert,but none of them want it so

hey i aint going to force them to have it

if you know what i mean

okay well let's see today i will go with

may i interested you in any appitizer like brushetta or some hot cocoa to warm you up today

bring them drink always refill their refill drink and make sure they have enough breadsticks

all i care for now!

oh well -- looking at mirror this morning-- im look really cute-- haha

im just saying!

day 5th of working

okay this is summary for short before i go for more detail

later

wednesday -- J and G -- not cool at the bar- bad service,but the highest tip of that night 114 and 116

thursday -- long john silver inspiration! one of the best day! -- E and D --345 and 434

friday -- really nice people and also really cheap people $80 with no tip--but i do understand! --at least they paid-- E and J --325 and 335  

saturday -- one of the okay day -- two tables with forgot to put order in and one table with misunderstanding-- G,E and D -- 343 and 334

Sunday -- strated great then down to hell- stupid server and also stupid trainer..- G and D -- 233 and 224

okay Wednesday- i wasn't supposed to work,but Ad didn't feel go so i help her-- excited with no change--not ready,but so glad that i started with really bad service partner,but had really nice trainer so my day was bad..but not bad and i learn to be dependent and never want to have this happened again...

getting to learn on those dash thing-- glad to have Xris and Christi around :)

Thursday-- Walmart guy name Tom is really really nice and super super awesome then went to LJS --JD showed me the guy that is really happy and stay positive-- he even came to my room that we are eating and said thank you for bear with him and for coming--

his mouth is ear to ear-- seriously!!!

had couple deaf and inspired me to take hearing aide at Dmacc

not cool when you have some trainer who doesn't even care to pronounce your name right!

well i don't really care much so after that im just call me the weird name gal in front of him-- what is his name anyway?

Friday -- my day that im supposed to work- not feeling it,but tried to carry my night to the end-- didn't really care much what is going  on-- so happy that i have Kandance as my service partner.. met couple awesome people and even i had one not so understanding table-- im still have one of my great day! getting really annoying with D keeps calling me miss--

id you don't know my name or don't care about my name-- no bother to call me miss-- just ended up sentence with whatever that you asked me to do-- i care that is why im saying it

and really annoying!!

Saturday-- getting better with Dash and knowing face of the food!

had James for service partner.. had one problem with one table that i totoally forgot to add appitizer in-- shouldn't do that again!!!

Ps--

stay away from mgrs as much as possible -- stay with them is just mean i creat some troubles-- not cool!!

sunday--

stupid way to creat station-- they put me to work with another person and so far i have only one table-- seriously!!

thing was okay until - 20 guests walking it

one have no idea what she is doing server,but want it to be miss perfect at everything!

one is im doing whatever if you asking me to

one is im a man and i will whatever it takes

and me - im the bored and i just want everything done- fast and easy way!

already brought guest 6 salad refill...

so million times bread sticks!

uncountable refill drink

but still never put order it

WTF!

if i never offered my help,i won't be really piss off-- but not just one,but many time that im asking to help

if you have no idea what to do-- just blame yourself

don't blame others-- it is just show how stupid and clueless you are

also that stupid trainer- just come to confirm more of how "don't know what you are doing thing!

it is just pure ridiculas

im give this OG 6 months to try--

if in my 1 month-- im still don't know all the stuffs--

i should really considered myself the big time!

-- one thing-- i don't get how come they don't let server write or something that they are good at--

are they good with kids, olderly or family with teenager

big party or talkative

match your guests with server personality would be awesome!!

don't you think!

so happy im off tomorrow,but i still want to work more!